Tell Me Now How Should I Feel...
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: Orgy - "Blue Monday (Club 69 Remix)"
Today was a day of planning. Planning for the weeks and months ahead. Yet there are still things I am not prepared for... tests and such. I will be gone later this week which means no more posting. Not that anyone will read this anyway.

Wake Up Early In The Morning...
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: Ben E. King - "Stand By Me"
I guess it all really starts to suck when the people you remember don't seem to remember you. The friends you once had treat you like someone they saw once at a party rather than a part of their lives. It's okay though, I'll deal. That's all... slow night.

Friday Night Fight
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Animotion - "Obsession"
The sun has set and my phone has not gone off. It has not gone off in many months, from anyone around here who would like to catch a movie or anything. Am I lost without direction or am I pushing away from the things I once knew. It feels not long ago when I could receive several calls a night and have to decide where to go. Things have changed, people have left and moved on, as have I. I believe I am in a transitional period between what once was and what I want to be. It is a long period, but once it has passed I will look back on this time and remember my struggle with a fond happiness that I will not have to repeat it again. 18 approaches while my past still flails behind me.

It's Beginning To Look A Lot Like...
Now Playing: Madonna - "Die Another Day (Dirty Vegas Mix)"
Today was just another day. Nothing big to happen. Nothing small to report. I wasn't hit in the head by flying projectiles in the hallway at school today for the second day in a row, I guess that's a good thing. Still no news from LCC, maybe they lost my application. I guess I'll find out soon enough. I really need to get writing on this novel, one chapter isn't enough to satisfy... I'll write more tomorrow. I need winter break to come. Money = Happiness when you're sharing it with someone you love. I'll write again later.

Depression: A Sequel To a Life Less Lived
Now Playing: Alanis Morissette - "Crazy (Video Mix)"
It's that time of year again, when people seem to grow further away even if they aren't, when everything seems a little darker even if it's not, and when the feeling of lonely sadness takes over even if there's nothing to cry about. It's the memory of a night out, driving around, feeling as though you are free when you're still trapped in a town trying to be something it's not. It's a memory of a school play, a Halloween party, a sleepover... things you don't need to think about but do anyway. It's a time of reflection when even Christmas can't bring around the joy it once held. I'm talking about winter. And as I watch the first snowflakes collect on the ground, I wonder if this season will create more of the dark and lonely memories that make me want to return to seasons past, and fear the seasons of the future.

Just Testing
Mood:  cheeky
Just testing this out.